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I miss you. I don’t have the right to miss you, but I do. I wish I could talk to you. Tell you…
Fuck, I don’t know what I would tell you.
Just… ask that you forgive me. Julie… Forgive me… I’m not… I’m not a traitor. I’m NOT. I’m trying to save– I’m trying to save us all.
But you’re right. I am a coward. I’m a fucking coward. You deserved to know why. But I couldn’t… I couldn’t face you properly… Not and still do what had to be done.
Papa believes you’re 
Clea’s creation. And even if you’re not, we can no longer trust you. But I think you just wanted answers.
Why? WHY couldn’t you just let it go… Why did you convince them to abduct me? Interrogate me? I–
No, fuck– I shouldn’t say that. You thought I was a traitor, you were doing what you thought was right. Just like we are.
I swear to you, I’m doing what’s right.
I should have known when you started questioning things, that you wouldn’t be fooled. But how could I even explain. You’d have thought I’d gone mad. Doppelgangers, canvas worlds…
Merde.
But Papa’s right, we can’t take the risk, too much is at stake. It had to be done. It had to. Clea already took our sister… If we want to save our family, our world, our people… We can’t take any chances.
And once we free Maman, she… she’ll bring you back… It won’t be forever. I promise.
I promise…
We deserve to live. All of us. We deserve to exist.
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